Conversation With Her...

"Fukdat" is what i was told
"Fukdat"?!?!
Well fuckdat is what i said back
U left me cracked, once, but i put myself back together
Left me in cold weather
But i wore this sweater...this... shield
A shield that was supposed 2 block and make me invisible 2 u
but sum how u seep thru...well i let it happen
I took off the shield n said fukdat
Fukdat...it is what it is n i cant help but sho n tell u
Ill give my 100% n try not 2 fail u
Only 2 give my 100% n fall into...this...quiksand
YES it was quik damn!
But it was always in UR hands
And u kept it there until u felt like...
"Im not happy" was what i was told
Ur not happy?!?
Well im not happy eitha i sleep eat breathe ya
And u cant even give me an explaintion on why ya frown wasnt a smile
I stood up! And sat u down...time afta time...and u gave me the same ol lines!
"My personal opinion" is that the fault wasnt mine
But in ur eyes there was sumone else...
"Theres No TRUST" is what i was told
No Trust?!!?
NO trust was the 1st couple of months
But once i said...
HHOOOOOLLL AAHHH...lettme me not go to my " excuses "
Cuz that seems 2 be useless
That seems 2 go down the drain with the promise ring i got u 4 xmas
Now im back 2 square one callin u my X and ...the shit hurts!
And at first i said id neva say ya name again until my own childs birth
But one bad area of land doesnt end the earth

But 4 what its worth...i had a good conversation with "Her"
Well i guess i cud call ya name now " Love "
Hopefully next time we talk it'll be thru kisses and hugs and finally the feelings will be mutual...